Young, gifted and Black. What no one told me about being the ‘first’ to go to college
BRANDON TERRELL | 12/11/2017, 1:42 a.m.
Trice Edney Communications
I was reared and schooled in Detroit, where poverty and oppression eloquently danced while violence and crime serenaded the communities.
The crime and oppression in my neighborhood drove me to submit a college application that changed my life’s trajectory. I wasn’t going to college to become an adult; I faced mature challenges and struggles long before filling out my college applications. For me, higher education represented an escape from adult struggles.
But I couldn’t escape the financial challenges. For first-generation college students like me, the responsibilities designed for mature adults were often delegated to us adolescents. Now that I’m in graduate school, I have some distance and perspective on what first-gens really need to thrive at a four-year college.
And, despite some model programs at universities, I fear the current political climate and threatened budget cuts will only make it harder for first-gens to obtain a four-year degree.
I know from experience my journey as a first-gen and non-traditional undergraduate college student is devastatingly common.
No one in high school or college spoke to me about the financial realities of being a student who couldn’t rely on family for support. FAFSA, Pell Grants and loans were foreign concepts. The conversations I had growing up rarely involved college. We talked about who was buying dinner that night or who needed to get a job to help pay bills.
Survival was the goal. By the time I applied to college, I had already tangled with life and boxed with oppression, discrimination, stereotypical beliefs and negative ideologies, all while juggling school, plus a job or two.
Life had prepared me for college. But the challenges never stopped coming.
Even as I struggled to pay tuition and buy meals when the food courts closed for the weekends, I often got calls from relatives who needed help buying groceries. Relief started with me. I had no safety net – I WAS the safety net.
Completing college required a survival balancing act – maintaining my GPA, bridging gaps back at home, and navigating collegiate bureaucracies while carefully responding to micro-aggressions and prejudice in majority white spaces.
Spectators would classify the underlying factor of our motivation as “grit” or “determination,” but for many first gens, our motivation is simply survival. We have no choice.
Missing an assignment, being too tired to attend a bio lecture after working more than 30 hours a week, failing a 300 level course, or even missing a tuition payment created a slippery slope back to the environment that suffocated dreams.
But we are a population that colleges cannot afford to lose, as we represented 36 percent of students seeking a four-year degree nationwide in 2012.
Politicians, educators, social workers, counselors and administrators must address the intersecting social and cultural challenges that precede our applications, accompany us to college and follow us even after securing a degree.
Access to college and financial aid is not enough to secure a better quality of life for students coming from low-income backgrounds. The gap is widening, with only 14 percent of the most economically disadvantaged students earning a bachelor’s degree, according to a 2015 federal study.
We need a different support system to thrive in college-mentors, help with living expenses, travel costs, tutors, flexible schedules and emotional support from other students who feel isolated, but are coping with similar struggles.
We need to stop talking about college attainment in simplistic ways. It takes so much more than grit.
Brandon Terrell works at the University of Michigan as a program assistant for the community health department. He graduated Eastern Michigan University in 2015, where he is currently attending graduate school.